no clear skies ahead

I feel like my emotions have been strewn all over the place by a wild tornado in the mid-west. It lingers and holds on. It gets stronger and dies down. Just as I think it is going to end and I will see clear skys. Another front comes and strengthens the core to yet again confuse all my senses all over again. Clicking the heels of my converse will not make this end.

I am lost. I am confused. I cry one minute. The next I am screaming curse words at the top of my lungs hoping to release some of my anger.

Knitting and crocheting have always helped sooth my mind and ease my thoughts. But even at this time, it is not helping. I try new patterns. I cannot even concentrate and call myself a loser because I can't figure out some stupid knitting stitch.

Please tornado leave so I can start picking up the pieces of my life and gather my emotions in one controlable fashion.